...having focusing problems...

I'm currently at the library and I was reading lessons for my online class but I couldn't focus and since it's been so long since I last blogged, I thought I would write a bit before I need to leave for class in about 10 minutes.

I'm absolutely exhausted. I have a 7AM ballet class and it's been so hard getting up. It doesn't seem to matter what time I go to bed. Last night I was in bed before 12AM and getting up at 6 still killed me. Then I have three more classes in a row that I can never seem to keep my eyes open for. Frustrating? much.

I think the keyboards in the library are muted. I mean, if I stop to listen i can hear the all over the place but when I type, the act of pushing the key down seems as though I'm not even pushing it at all. I have a hard time getting my I's to be upper case.

I'm really worried about moving back home this summer. This for a number of reasons. First off, I'm not excited to be living with my parents again. It really isn't that bad but I've gotten so used to living on my own that home often feels so daunting. And my hometown doesn't really feel like home anymore. I love where I am now and all the people I've come to know really well. I've made so many friends here at school and it will be strange and needless to say difficult to leave them all for four months. I suppose I will survive. I'm hoping to get an internship this summer and be working full time. $$$

Summer seems like another universe from now. It's absolute freezing right now. Currently, it's 15 degrees outside. And 15 degrees is never good. It's like living in the antarctic. I'm really loathing it. And my least favorite thing about it is how you bundle up with a million layers of shirts, sweatshirts, coats, a scarf, mittens, etc...and then you get inside and it feels like a furnace and you're forced to strip down every single time you come inside. Maybe that's just me...

I know this seems so negative, but I'm really happy right now. I talked about my new years resolutions in one my last blogs. I didn't list them out, but I mentioned how I had some. Well, I am continuing to work on those and I really excited to see how things turn out at the end of the year. I want this to be a year of change. I'm so happy with how my life is right now. But I still know things have room to improve. Well, I best be getting off to class...

lame blog. sorry...

=D 'til next time.

peace yo